This is something that came up in a conversation with a Twitter buddy this morning and it’s been running through my mind the rest of the day.
Anyone in recovery knows what it is, though they may not know it by that name. They know what damage it can do, though.
There are two specific ways stinkin’ thinkin’ can come into play and attempt to sabotage recovery… whether that recovery is about substance abuse, alcoholism, or mental illness. Or a combination of any or all of the above.
On one end of the spectrum, stinkin’ thinkin’ will try to convince you that you are in some way unworthy and unable to achieve and maintain any meaningful recovery. “You’re not strong enough… You’re not good enough… You need that drink. You need those drugs. You don’t deserve to be happy/sober/clean/at peace…”
The other end of the spectrum, you hear these lies… “You’ve been doing great. You’re so much better. You can handle one drink. You can do one hit. A reward.for keeping yourself together.” Or… “You’re fine… you don’t need those meds anymore.”
Of course, there are variations… but they all work to undo whatever you are trying to do to maintain some normalcy and peace on your life.
Take care to listen to what your inner voice is telling you. If it’s anything that might lead you back to using, drinking or neglecting following your treatment plan… brush those thoughts aside, think of how far you have come, how much you have to lose and think of the positives/blessings in your life.
When stinkin’ thinkin’ hits, take a deep breath, tell it to take a hike and just… be. Just be until you get your balance back. Then leave that negative thought process behind and move on.
We all go through it…
We can all get through it.
Hang in there and remember you aren’t alone.