So Here I Am

So here I am right back where I started
Cold gray walls, white coats
Vitals taken, pills given
Sad faces, manic laughter
Screams of anguish

So here I am, you think you’ve won
Reminders of the past flood back
Trying to push out how far I’ve come
How much I’ve learned
How hard I’ve fought
How I have succeeded and defeated you more than once

So here I am, and you have won nothing
I have picked myself up from lower ledges than this
Climbed higher mountains in my path
I’m still here and you can’t make me give up.
I will not quit.
I am a better person for all the battles I’ve won!

Copyright 2010 Michelle D. Wampole

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So much confusion
So much anger
So much hurt

What was the truth
What were the lies
Was any of it real

You hurt my friends
You hurt me
You hurt yourself, but you’re too blind to see it

Stop, just stop
before more people are hurt
before it’s too late to repair the damage

Copyright 2010 Michelle D. Wampole

The Storm

Hurt, angry
Seeing only the color red
Out of control

Emotions raging
Throwing objects and punching walls
Until exhaustion descends

Breathing deep
Trying to regain my rational self
Getting under control

Thinking clearly
Realizing it’s all so pointless
Dropping the anger

Letting go
No more hurt or anger
I forgive you

Copyright 2010 Michelle D. Wampole

The Best Revenge

I remember when I was a kid
you threw me across the room into a concrete wall
I remember the time you kicked me
until I was unconscious
When you twisted my arm so hard
up behind my back
that it broke
I remember every time you spit at me
at the top of your lungs
how retarded, worthless and unlovable I was
I remember

I still feel every blow
every scar and every wound laid open
caused by your fists or your words
Even now, years later
your voice still echoes in my had
even though you’re nowhere near
Oh yes, I remember

I hated you for years
Swore I’d kill you if I could
I even almost took my own life
in an effort to silence you once and for all
The weight of that hate and anger
grew so heavy
I became trapped under it
Unable to move forward
Unable to turn back

I finally realized I had to let it all go
I had to forgive in order to move on
It wasn’t easy, but I did it
I forgave you

I can say I wish you well
I hope your life is peaceful
I can even say I love you and mean it

And that is the best revenge

Copyright 2010 Michelle D. Wampole