15 Years… Remembering Princess Diana


I remember the first time I saw her in the news, not long after Charles’ proposal and before their marriage. She wasn’t much older than I.

Even so young, she was so beautiful and seemed so shy… not very comfortable being the center of media attention. But as she grew up before the eyes of the world, married her Prince, and took on the duties of a wife, a Princess and then mother, she blossomed from shy young girl to a seemingly confident and capable woman. Of course, as time went on, the world discovered the confidence was a well built facade.

It was through her that the world learned, that just because fairy tales don’t always have a happy ending, it didn’t mean you couldn’t rewrite your ending, and that you didn’t necessarily need a Prince to have a ‘happily ever after’.

That’s when the crumbling facade turned into real self-confidence and she really grew into the beautiful woman who is forever known as “the People’s Princess”.

But through all those years, from shy young girl to confident woman, one thing about her never changed… her ingrained passion and compassion for others. That is what really caught my attention about her. This radiance about her of love and caring and compassion for those around her. She was truly a remarkably beautiful woman… inside and out. I ended up having a huge crush on her for years, But how could anyone not fall in love with her?

When I heard of her death… it could not have been more devastating to me had she been a member of my own family. I was crushed. And her loss in this world still feels as it did then… the grief of the world is still felt to this day when you speak of her or her accomplishments. I’m not sure if it’s because her loss was so sudden, or if it was because she was still so young (only 36), or the utter senselessness of how she died… maybe it’s a combination of all of the above. I just know that looking backing and sensing the grief that still exists, this past 15 years feels as though it’s only been 15 minutes. And I am sure I am not the only one who feels that way.

Diana’s was a rare soul… down to earth despite the position in life she found herself in, kind, passionate about family and life, compassionate, sympathetic and empathetic for those less fortunate than she and one who truly believed in putting the welfare of others before her own self interests. It has been amazing to see those same traits continuing on in the lives of her sons. I do believe she would be so proud of them both. Well, she might have had something to say about naked billiards in Las Vegas, but I digress…

Today I remember the People’s Princess… an Ambassador of Hope for the World.

Rest in peace, Diana… you are loved and missed.


What Do I Do Now???

So… I’m in a bit of a┬ádilemma here.

We’re behind on almost everything, but getting caught up. Problem is, we no longer have cable, Internet or phone.

TV… I could care less about that. But I am really missing the Internet and phone, especially the phone.

If you are wondering how it is that I am able to blog… I pick up a very weak unsecured connection from somewhere in the building I live in… one of my neighbors. It works well enough… when it actually works… for me to deal with my email, post a blog, basic Facebook stuff (but no games)… just the basics really. No streaming music or video. But, it’s enough for a temporary fix, I guess.

The thing I miss the most is a phone. It was my main connection to family and friends and it’s gone now. And it’s one thing I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get back. I can’t get a landline because of a bill my ex racked up years ago that I haven’t been able to pay down fast enough to get ahead of all the additional fees other than the actual bill. Basically, I’d just be paying finance charges. So… I gave up on ever getting another landline through Alltel. I used to have a cell phone and I was always able to pay my bills on time and everything was great until I let someone talk me into dropping my service through Boost and getting a family plan with them. It sounded like a good deal at the time, but it’s been a nightmare for almost two years. Again, I have no problem keeping up and paying my share… they have been the unluckiest people with that though. Every few months, they would have to switch to another carrier and get new phones because, for one reason or another, they’re portion of the bill wasn’t paid and the service was shut off. Every few months for almost two years. It’s so frustrating!

Anyway, I really do need to get another phone and plan of my own and I have no problem covering $60 a month for an unlimited plan. My problem is that I can’t afford the $200 or so it would take to buy the new phone and the first month of service together all at the same time.

I have a very tight budget based on my Social Security income… I don’t have much, if anything, left over at the end of the month. It would take me awhile to save up for the phone, but the thing is… just when I’d have some saved,,, something will come up, it always does, and I’ll have to use that money I’ve saved to cover it.

It’s times like this I really do wish there were such a thing a Fairy Godmothers…

I really do miss talking with my mom, my sister, my best friends…

So what do I do?